Future

Earthlings.

I'm one of those people that have no idea what I want to do with my life after high school. I've thought about it and have gone through fazes of what I want to do. For the longest time I wanted to be a teacher. But every time I start to think 'i won't do well at that or I will fail miserably.'  I also get put down a lot when I tell people about what I want to do, 'you really think you can do that' is the most common one I hear, mostly from family.

Its hard to know what I want to do because there are so many things out there.  It's difficult to choose at such a young age.  I know people who still have no idea what they want to do occupational wise and are in their 30's, 40's. My parents being a prime example. I know there is no rush, but lately with this being my final year of "high school" and having to think more and more about what I want to do after high school has got  me a tad down.

I always thought when I was younger I would be a teacher no joke, then I wanted to be a lawyer, but soon when school started to become a problem I realized I'd be in school to long for both, and school is really a bad thing for me. Then I started to think maybe a baker or cook. But by the time I thought of this I was in the middle of high school with no cooking classes. So Baking went out the small window.

Lately I started to think if I don't know what I'm going to do for a occupation I won't have a future. and yes I know there is more to life then just work, like family and traveling. I want to travel but I don't want to do a job where I travel because I'd only see the inside of hotels and airports. and Family, I'm never getting married, if I do get married it'll be a miracle, and kids I want but I would need to support them some how.

I don't want a job I hate. I see all these older people like my parents and grandparents that have jobs they put up with because they needed money to survive. I want something I love to do and wouldn't mind doing 5 days a week or more. I want to be able to enjoy my job, like my boss and A&W does. She honestly enjoys what she does, and it makes her happy. I don't want to work at A&W the rest of my life..

Lately though I've been thinking Wedding Planner or even Party Planner because I'm a good organizer, and I love planning things. I've planned about 3 different parties for family. All of them were surprise parties. I think they all turned out pretty well. But I don't know, like I said I start to doubt myself. Sometimes I wish I have super Confidence in myself so I could stick to one thing and know what I have in store for my future....