Be There For Me Like I Am For You....

Fellow Earthlings.

Every time I need someone..  everyone walks away from me.
See with depression, I am more prone to being sad. I have a million things running in my head. I can't handle everything alone. But that is exactly what I am... Alone.
Like sometimes I don't mind being alone. But when I come to you for help, I don't need you to turn it into all about you I need you to stop and listen. I need you to be there for me like I'm always there for you. This post really isn't for one person it's for like 3 different people.

I hurt so much, so when I come to you I do not want you to turn around and make me feel worse, like you do. When I come to you I don't want you to walk away and say tell me to deal with it myself because you can't handle my issues. When I come to you I don't want to talk about you or about how you have had worse experiences I want you to sit there and listen and not tell me how you have been through more than I have. I want you people to just sit there and help me through whatever I came to you for. I want you to hug me or tell me everything will work out.

*For once in our friendship I want you to be there for me like I am for you, for once just be there.

Samantha Margaret Rose

Ups or U.P.S. ?

Fellow Earthlings,

Oh how I apologize for the last post, sometimes I get so down and in a funk I just can't function and I have a need to write, to get all the emotion I bottle up, out.
Well I have one thing to be very proud to report. I have successfully changed my Voice Mail to say 'Hello Fellow Earthlings, Sam is unavailable to at the moment, please leave a message.. and your name. And she will get back to you as soon as she can! Great thank you!" I am thinking of adding 'to infinity and beyond' at the end... It's still in Debate. (ha-ha)


Before I start on the next topic, Do you earthlings know the UPS delivery service trucks?
Okay Am I the only one who pronounces it as Ups instead of U.P.S. ? See the thing is they don't put PERIODS in between the U P S. So this one day I was talking to my mom and there was a U.P.S. Truck outside our house and my mom's like is that the pizza guy? I'm like no it's a Ups van..  She literally stopped what she was doing, looked at me and gave me
The WTF meme look ====>
Ever since my mom laughs whenever she sees a U.P.S. Van. She points and goes 'Loook Sam it's your Ups Truck..

I can literally see her doing the Troll Face, I have a very valid point to why I call it Ups instead of U.P.S no joke no where on those truck does is have periods in between those letters. I'm not sure about you all but in kindergarten I was taught if that if there isn't periods between words you sound them out and they create words!!!




(SEE NO PERIODS BETWEEN LETTERS!) 


Who else would make my mistake?

Samantha Margaret Rose

What's the point?

Hi Earthlings,

*This following post is probably going to be very depressing just to warn you. *

           As most of you all know I suffer from depression, (who doesn't right?) I should be taking my pills but I don't I used to be so aware of everything and anything around me but when I'm on them I feel like a zombie like I'm not even around. Right now Is the hardest time for me, specially at home.

        Everything is just so freaking screwed up no body wants me around, and I'm always treated like I'm a child, and stupid. Everywhere I go someone is always treating me like this. I don't want to be here anymore, I try and help people but it whiplashes back in my face. Sure I have an attitude but seriously does it really mean you have to call me a cow, or a stupid little bitch?

       I love my Parents but I can't handle them, my dad cares more about his computer buddies then real life, I have to jump up and down screaming to actually get his attention and half the time that doesn't even work.
My Mom, I used to be so close to when she was doing bad things a couple years ago, then she changed back. I used to have to help her and care for her when she get so bad that she couldn't do things the next day. I always tried to be close to her and I still am a little but I can feel us falling apart, I can feel the tension between us get stronger. I actually used to like going to her to tell her things now I don't even want to go near her because she's always treating me like I've done something wrong. And now a days all she does is sleep, so I can't really talk to her about half the things I used to.

       Honestly I don't want to be on Earth anymore, or even a being of the universe. I want to be able to close my eyes and  dig my cold feet into the earth, staying there forever.  Even though Death scares me more than anything, I would rather get rid of myself then be such a horrible burden on everyone. If I was gone, my mom could be so content with not having to always wonder where I am, having to worry about how much of a fucking bitch I am. And my Dad wouldn't be bothered anymore for rides and actually having to be a grown up. And I wouldn't hurt so much, whenever I try and help them. It's impossible to speak to them or even be around them, yet they always wonder why I am never around. That's why because I rather not be hurting you and myself by being around you. I never want to burden you two. Like you always said I was a mistake anyways. Why don't I just help you get rid of your fucking mistake. That way you both can Live Happily Ever After.

Samantha Margaret Rose

Just one of those days

Hey Fellow Earthlings,

It's finally November!! Wow this year is going by fast, I feel like everything just zoomed by. To think a month ago I was in Disney World, Oh how I miss the hot weather, no joke. Vancouver is super cold and wet.  Non-stop rain.. I'm losing my Tan people!

I was priding myself on the fact I was tanner than my best friend, now we are the same colour. Today is a cold wet day, again. I guess I should get used to it and I should be happy I'm not in Jersey, where water damage is everywhere.

Today is a lovely boring day where I do absolutely nothing at my best friends while she is sick laying on her couch watching ghost stories on TV.
I  love days like this because it feels so normal where nobody does anything. Though there are things missing in today like a good video game to watch my friends kill zombies. It's the little things I love about days like this. The nice silence and, random talks. I could go for a good subway sandwich. This post is all over the place I apologize. I'm super bored it's not fun when everyone is soo blah. ITS COLD SEASON PEOPLE!

Well with that I shall go because I am typing to much and the clicking is bothering the 'sick one'

Samantha Margaret Rose