I am a non stoppable facebook stalker, Yes I admit it. I find no shame in it. Isn't that what facebook was made for? to stalk the unstalkable old friends?
In about grade 6 I had a big group of friends. I was not popular, nor have I ever been or cared to be popular. I had a good group of rejected friends. We were crazy and just plain weird. I loved it. Now I have maybe a few close friends and only talk to one of my old friends. This year would have been my graduating year of high school. But I have problems, and switched to a more suitable school for me.
The only downfall to my school is we don't have grad, or winter formal, or the senior sail. Or even Prom.
I don't even graduate this year. I have to wait till I am 19 to graduate from my school, due to the program I'm in. I remember back when my best friend at the time, Andrea and I would talk about our future proms, I was never huge on dressing up in a dress and dancing for a Prom or dance. I was anti-prom at the time. Now All i see are these girls from back then all dressed up at these graduation Dances.
It pains me to see them, because I know I should be there with them. I should be next to them, with a gown smiling and taking photos of ourselves. But I'm not.
It leaves a huge hole of sadness to know I'll never be able to have a prom or a Graduation or even be able to walk across the platform to accept my diploma. I feel disappointed in myself that I wasn't able to go through a normal high school like everyone else. I remember when I was little I always want to have the class A high school experience. but reality I got the first 2 and a half years of real high school. Till I transferred to CABE then when that didn't work out I transferred to LINC and it is great it's small and It helps with Teens in the same situation as me. But I still miss everything I would have had if I was able to stick in my old school with my old friends. I miss a lot of things. Specially my old friends. Missing people always leaves a deep hole of what you used to have...
Samantha Margaret Rose
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